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Joys I’ve Lost
A Not-So-Brief Missive on Popular Culture, aspects of AvPD and the Justifications I’ve Conjured in Leaving Things Behind.
I still don’t know a lot about Avoidant Personality Disorder, probably because my brain is avoiding having to deal with it in any significant measure, for now anyway. When I first discovered the disorder and tried to look into it, I started reading a book from my local library on the subject. However, I wasn’t more than ten pages in before my brain did a MASSIVE 180 and started fixating heavily on comic books, to the point that I spent the better part of a month downloading a few terabytes worth of comic book files from the internet. I don’t know if I’ll ever get around to reading most of them, but the experience definitely reinforced my thinking that I was on the right path if my brain could panic so intensely and do what it did. Yep, AvPD is where it’s at, for now…at least where explanations for my neuroticism are concerned.
One of the things I think about A LOT is why I leave things behind so readily, or why I tend to shun social interactions, or take critical pot shots at popular culture the way I do. For the most part, I’ve been able to conjure very good reasons for why I do what I do. The question that remains, however, is one of do I do the things I do for the reasons I’ve conjured to…
