You have my sympathies. I live with chronic drepression and a recent treatment regimen for my sleep disorder is making it worse. The only upside is that my dreams are getting more active and adventure like, I suspect because of the medication and because of the fact that I hardly leave the house except to buy necessities and participate with my community arts program downtown.

It definitely not as severe a life as yours, i admit, but I can empathize.

I saw a documentary from the UK on chronic pain some years back. One woman who had suffered for years agreed to undergo a proceedure whereby a specialist met her at home and moved a magnetic pulse device over a region of her skull for a period of time. She wept at being able to exist pain free for the first time in ages. So, there is hope. Fingers crossed you get to enjoy life again, pain free, before your ticket is punched.